Blogging

I'm trying new looks for my blog. Why? Because it really irritates when there is a lot of empty space on the page. So I had to stretch it and there aren't a lot of stretch templates on blogger. I could try to edit the html and adjust the box sizes but I don't think I'm ready for that.

I'm in a bit of a mood now because H has peed in his car seat yet again after he fell asleep in the car. When will he become fully potty-trained? He just can't physically hold it when he's sleeping. I read a book in college of this writer's memory of the year when she woke up. Became aware of herself as a person, existing. When will this happen for H? I'm waiting to speak to him coherently. Will this day ever come? It makes me feel like a horrible mom because I feel like I'm doing something wrong or not doing something right that he needs to develop. Being here just isn't enough.

I told H's friend that we had a crawl space in our house because that's where we're going to hide when the aliens come. He then said he didn't have a space like that in his house and I told him he did and he should ask him mom where it is when he goes home. What a fun conversation. It makes me feel sad that I'm not talking to H like this. I know you're not supposed to compare kids, but that's what you say to other kids' moms when they are saying how their kid isn't up to speed. Ugh. I'm waiting...